TRYING TO GET BACK

My tooth has been pulled. I lost two pounds and am now at 248. The problem now is getting back on track and into losing weight mode period. I need to get back to my water and to exercise. Monday will be a fresh start with new eating patterns and exercise routines. I will go to the Y if it is cold or raining. I will not make any excuses. I can do this. I'm still on pain meds but hopefully today will be the last day. I am back and will continue on my journey. I lost the points challenge with Carrie this month but watch out because next month I will kick butt.

FEELING BETTER

Well, I'm doing better. I did miss math class this morning because I was hurting and had to take a pain pill. I have to figure the homework out on my own now. It really sucks but I can do it. THe teacher posts the notes online so it helps. I also have Eng. homework to do and study for a test in communications class.
Diet wise hasn't been to great. It's hard to say awful though when I can't eat much. The problem is that when I am eating, I'm eating the wrong thing. I'm going to try to get exercise in today. I'm getting my haircut so maybe after that I can take a small walk. It won't be long because my meds should be wearing off anytime after that. I can't wait to be able to get off of them completely.

DEPRESSION

Okay, I'm really depressed. I feel really alone today and I don't really know why. I can't seem to do anything because of my tooth. It's funny to watch me try to eat. The scales aren't really moving yet so I'm getting frustrated with that. Carrie's comp is broke so she can't email me either which isn't her fault. It's amazing how much you miss something or someone when they aren't there. I am really down in the dumps today. I want to be better. I want help around my house. I want my husband to baby me just a little when I'm feeling so physically awful, instead of expecting me to do everything still. I want alot of what I can't have. I'll survive but today is just a depressing day.

FRUSTRATION

I'm getting very frustrated with everything in general. My tooth is hurting and preventing me from eating which is making my stomach cramp. The scales read 250 again yesterday but 248 this morning. I imagine I'll have a good loss next week. I'm so far behind in points with Carrie that there is no possible way of catching up. SHe leads me by 99 points. I've had to subtract the last two days. It's okay though because she is working hard and earning every single point. I got her prize yesterday and am excited about sending it to her in a couple of weeks when the challenge ends. Who knows maybe I'll catch up in the week after getting this stinking tooth pulled...lol!!! I'm going to try to get back to exercising on Monday. I'll try to drink water tonight and tomorrow so I can get a few points. It's hard to exercise when any kind of bumping around hurts. The swelling is going down somewhat but I still look disfigured. I will hopefully get points from weight loss next week.

TOOTHACHE

I hate toothaches. They suck. I didn't sleep last night either so I spent today sleeping. I even missed class. I started the day at the dentist's office. My jaw is the size of a golfball or bigger. It hurts just as much. I did sleep this afternoon. I tried to eat but it just made my tooth hurt more so I'll stick with my pudding. I'm going to be subtracting points today because the oomph just isn't in me.

DOING GOOD

I'm pretty proud of myself this week. I have been doing pretty well. I haven't ate out hardly at all and when I have I've kept it light. It's easier to do after you get going doing it right. I took a long walk yesterday. The funny thing is that it wasn't as long as I thought it would be. I thought for sure it would be a 90 minute walk but it was shy of that by 15 minutes. Oh well!!! I did walk longer than normal. I'm going to take another good walk today. I am slowly catching up to Carrie. I've gotten to 22 points away from her instead of 37. SHe's been working hard outdoors though and she may take even a bigger lead on Friday with pounds lost. SHe's been doing great with the losing of pounds. I think she's been giving them to me...lol!!!!! Just kidding!! I love her alot and am so glad to see her doing better than me. IT's really giving me the push that I need. We are going to lose this weight and maybe someday you'll see our pics in a magazine as a success story.

FEELING GOOD

I got on the scales this morning. I know I wasn't supposed to but they did move in the right direction. They haven't moved enough for me to count points yet but they did not read 250. I am really excited about that. I pray that they will go down another couple of pounds so I can count points on Friday. I need all the help I can get with them right now. I have got some running to do today but nothing is stopping me from racking in points. LOL!!!

HOMEWORK AND MORE HOMEWORK!!!!

School is still going strong. My interpersonal communications class is the hardest by far but one of my more enjoyable classes. I like the way the teacher teaches. He keeps your interest. English is boring. Math is easier than expected. Computers is just plain easy.
Diet is going well this week as well. I'm not eating if I'm not hungry and stopping when I'm full. The eating out is better as well. I did have a sandwich from McDonald's tonite because of a hectic day but I just had a cheeseburger so I'm not feeling to bad. I have stopped eating by 8 every night. I did gain 5 points on Carrie yesterday but am still way behind her. I'll catch up and surpass just wait and see. You can't count me down yet. I'm getting my exercise and water in every day so that is really good. I'm getting there.
I would love to see 200 by my birthday in March. I should reach it before then but I'm shooting for realistic numbers.

TRYING HARD

I'm trying real hard to do this right. I got on the scales this morning with no change. It's very frustrating. Carrie is kicking my behind with the points. I try to go above what I think she'll do and then she beats me again. It's this kind of stuff though that is keeping me motivated and not giving up. The scales have to give way sometime. I know that I'll lose the weight and the scales will be nice to me. I have my neice and nephew today and am enjoying my time with them. They are great to have around. My nephew is sleeping now so I had some free time to update. I'm hoping the rain stays away long enough for me to be able to take a walk. I really don't want to use my elliptical. I'm going to try hard to rack the points up.
I have to watch grandma tonite. We had a real bad morning the other day but that is expected every now and then. I do have to learn how to handle things better than what I did Saturday morning. I will watch it further. I love my grandma dearly and want whats best for her. I have to learn how to communicate that to her which is hard when she's confused. I will make a bigger effort.

BETTER DAYS

Okay, today and yesterday have gone better. I finally feel like things have clicked like they are supposed to. I am behind Carrie by 27 pts. Yuck!! I need to catch up those points and fast. I had to lose 2 points because of the gain so there is no more fooling around. I don't EVER want to subtract again. It'll be 5 points next month. THis point thing works because my butt gets up and moving. Who says that you can't make weight loss a game? It works with someone who is serious and who is honest. If anyone wants to know the points system because i don't think either one of has fully explained it. This is how it works:

Rewards:
5pts= every pound lost; weigh in's are on Friday's
5pts=every 15 min of deliberate exercise; housework and shopping do not count; you have to walk, do a dvd, weights, etc....
5pts=every bottle of water that you drink

Punishments:
-2pts= each gain (not per pound)
-2pts=no exercise at all (if you do at least 5 minutes, you get 0 without having to subtract)
-5pts= no water

SPecifics:
If you have a gain like I did this week, then you have to get back down to where you were in order to claim a loss. For example, my weight last week was 245. This week it was 250. I have to get to 244 in order to claim a loss and then I can only claim one pound. YOu don't get rewarded for losing pounds that you have gained back. It's like getting rewarded for gaining and we don't want that.
THe way Carrie and I are doing it. The loser at the end of the time that we have specified to end the first challenge has to send the winner a gift worth no more than 10 dollars.
We have different rules next month that are more encompassing. It'll keep getting harder and more challenging. Next month we will have bonus points that can be earned as well. For every reward we have we have a punishment. It wouldn't work well if there weren't consequenses. Neither of us wants to lose points that we worked hard to get.
I'm positive that the scales will start moving and that yesterday was water weight. I"m going to accomplish my goals.

DISAPPOINTMENT

Okay, I'm very disappointed in myself. I am up to 250 this week. It can be all fat because if it was my 20's wouldn't fit. I'm just so upset. I did so well with water and exercise. I have to do better with food. I can't expect to lose with eating out like I do. Eating out is convenient but not smart. I've got lots of homework to do this weekend so I'll concentrate on it and what I'm supposed to be doing. I will lose the 5 pounds plus more next week. I am going to do this.

HORRIBLE DIET DAY!!! UGH!!!!

Yesterday was horrible. I ate out for all three meals. It really sucked. I ended up with 20 points but don't know how. I am already starting on points today. SHe caught up with me yesterday. We are now tied. YEah!!!! I'm going to do better today even though today will be an eat out day as well. I had McD's cinnamon roll for breakfast. I will have a light, light lunch of maybe a veggie and then supper is going to be light as well. I've got a party to go tonite. It's going to be fun. My SIL is throwing it so I know I'll have a blast.
Well, I'm going to call my MIL and see if she is ready for a walk and if she isn't then I'm going to take one myself. I have a class this afternoon.

MISSED ONE

Okay, I know this is a insignificant thing in the long run but I missed a question on my math quiz. It was sort of devasting. One, it was so simple that it was stupid that I missed it. Second, it's the first question that I've missed in math period. The good thing is that he drops the lowest quiz off so I guess all in all I"m still at 100. I know petty to gripe about but it really upset me.
Diet wise. I didn't do so hot yesterday food wise. I'm getting the water and exercise in but not so great on food. Today isn't going to be super great either. I will bounce back though. It's okay. I still think I may see a loss this week. I've still done better all in all then I have been doing. I need to not eat at places like Taco Bell at 9pm. I need to eat three consistent meals that I haven't been doing. I'm trying today. Breakfast was a cinnamon roll and hash brown from McDonald's because I was at grandma's and had class.
I'm waiting for a friend to come now so we can have lunch. SHe's a friend of mine from Wal-mart. Last time we were supposed to get together she didn't show so hopefully she will this time. I'll have faith in her.

I'VE GOT THE LEAD

I've got a 5 point lead. Up until today she had the lead. It took me four days to get the lead. I have to fight to keep it though. It's going to be hard today because of the rain. I am going to be regulated to my elliptical and I don't like doing it for long periods of time. I may have to split my time up. We'll see how far I get on it. I have a late class so I'll have to watch water as well because I tend to have to go to the bathroom every five minutes after drinking alot. I'm bound and determined to win the first month though. I never saw my self as a competitor in anything. Heck, I used to be the type to not win on purpose because I didn't want to see the other person look sad when they lost. I didn't mind losing because I like seeing others happy. In this situation though, it's a win win. I win my health regardless of whether I win the challenge. I will win the challenge though. It pushes me to do more than what I was. I mean a week ago I could easily talk myself out of exercising and this week I can't talk myself out of it. I WILL NOT SUBTRACT POINTS!!!!! LOL!!!!! It's helping her as well. She's doing more now for the same reason. I want her to work hard because it makes me work harder. It's a great thing. I love this so much. I haven't been this excited in a long time. I made rules for October already and they are a lot tougher than this month's rules. It has to get tougher because losing the weight won't be easier. We'll be running around the block by next spring. LOL!!!

LOVING LIFE

I think the points has been the best thing to come along for a while to help me stay motivated. I exercise because I don't want to subtract points. I drink water for the same reason. I've gone two days now with no tea because I'm busy drinking the water. I feel much more energized then what I was. I'm doing better now then I have in a long while and it feels great. I can't wait to see the numbers drop on the scales. I am in the habit of getting on the scales every morning. The one thing sucking is that the numbers aren't going down yet. IT's okay though because they will. I'm going to try hard to stay off the scales until Friday morning. I know it takes a few days for the weight loss to catch up. I am hoping to be at 243 this week. I was 245 last Friday. I would love more than a 2 pound loss but I will take what I get. I don't want a gain because I would have to subtract points and let's face it that isn't going to happen. I'm behind Carrie by five points. I try to catch them up and it hasn't worked yet. She's keeping me on my toes which is awesome. I want her to work hard because it makes me work harder and helps us both reach results. The nice thing about this is that it makes weight loss somewhat of a game. Games can be fun. I'm not saying it's making it any easier but it is sure helping alot. I love it. I couldn't do this without Carrie.

LAZY DAY

Today has been a lazy day. I haven't wanted to do anything. This where the points has helped. It forced me to walk at least 15 minutes so I wouldn't have to subtract points and I didn't want a 0 so I did my walk. I'm also drinking my water. I have also gone 2 days with no tea. We had pizza tonite which wasn't good but I didn't eat much all day so calorie wise I don't think I'm dead in the water. I will see a loss on Friday. I promise.

RACKING THEM UP

I racked up 25 points yesterday. Yeah!!! Carrie got 30 so she has 5 points on me. Not for long!!! I will come into the lead today. I am not going to be near as busy today. I've got a ton of homework to do so I have nothing better to do then to sit around and drink my water and rack them up. LOL!!!!
Anyway, I'm doing a lot better than I was. My sister in law is doing the points with me here as well. I'm really getting pushed. I need that though. Food wise wasn't bad yesterday. I only had one tea all day which is a change for me. I felt horrible last night though probably because my body had gotten used to the sugar and I deprived it yesterday. I'm going to get back to counting points as well today. I ate a nice size breakfast but lunch will probably be small and so will supper.
I will get my exercise in today because I want to rack up the points. I am looking forward to winning the challenge.

POINTS

Why is my topic points? Well, Carrie and I have started a new challenge for this month. It's going to be based on a points system. IT's going to be fun. We get to earn points for losing weight, exercising, and drinking water. We lose points for gains, not exercising, and no water. YOu have to have penalties as well as rewards. At the end of four weeks or whenever we designate the end of the challenge to be, whoever has the most points wins and the loser has to send the winner a prize. I'm so psyched about this. It'll be easy to rack up water and exercise points which in turn should help with the weight loss points. We'll add to it next month to make it more exciting. It's a challenge that can adapt and keep us on our toes and hold us accountable. I'm really excited to start racking up the points. LOL!!!! I'm more motivated now. IT was a spur of the moment decision as well.
Well, school update now. Everything is going pretty good. My peer group really liked my essay. I was shocked. I read back over this morning and it sounded okay but I'm never to sure of myself. I feel like I'm getting the hang of things. I can only do my best and pray that it's good enough. If I work hard, then I can accomplish anything. I have to remember not to let to much get to me. I have to keep a level head. I tend to panic at the mere mention of essays. THey are not bad and I can inject me into them. I'm actually excited about them now. I guess you can say the confidence is building. I think school has been a great thing for me and for my self confidence. I encourage people to do it. I've been out of school for 14 years. Yes, it's scary and yes, it's hard. Life is hard. Weigh the positives of not going to the positives to not going. WHich one holds more weight? Don't you love how the word weight fits there? LOL!!! Anyway life is great!!!

BACK ON TRACK

I'm slowly getting back on track. It's been hard but I believe that I'm doing it now. It helps to have so many people backing me. I have my whole family behind me. Carrie is my sister in spirit and I love her. I consider her my family. I wouldn't be able to do this without her. Losing weight is so hard. WHen you add in home life, a job, and school. It doesn't get any easier. I did drink my water yesterday and did 10 min on my elliptical which isn't the 15 min. that I am supposed to do but I will make the 15 min.
My son went to his first ever sleepover with school. IT's a little nervewracking. I never had a sleepover field trip. HE'll enjoy himself but I'll miss him. I swear these field trips are harder on the parents then the children. LOL!!! Well, I'm off to another good day.

I'M GOING TO GET THERE

It's great. My MIL is back in the race with me. I'm so psyched and impressed. We can do this. I have two great people backing me, my MIL and Carrie!!!! I have done better this week but my period is still hanging on so we'll see how the weight loss goes this week. I am bound to see a loss shortly.

Back on Track

Okay, I'm back on track to an extent. My biggest part of my two free days was pop. I went pop free again yesterday. I'm very proud of myself. I'm looking forward to losing the weight. My MIL and I are starting to walk today. We have yet to make it to walking but we will today. We have to. I'll walk regardless. I think if I add water and exercise then maybe everything else will fall into place. I'm sure it will. I don't feel so big today. Of course, my TOM is not helping me either. I've got lots of housework to do and I go back to classes tomorrow.

Free Day

I took a free day yesterday. I think I needed a day to have no worries. I got my homework done yesterday which was a good thing. I am going to do the free day's occasionally. I think the worst I did was have pop. I'm going to work on this week eating three meals and exercising. I started my TOM last night out of the blue. I was due for it at the end of this week. IT's unusual for me to have it start early. I don't want to make to many changes at the moment. I think that may have been my problem. I'm going to do this. I'm going to be skinny.