Okay

SW: 261 TW: 233 TL: 28

Okay, one of the pesky pounds came back. You'd think with the cutting of my hair I would have lost a couple from that alone...lol! Yes, my hair got cut shorter than it has been in a long time. I love it though. Yesterday, I did pretty good. We ended up going to Ponderosa for lunch because we were in Logansport. I did pretty good but it's really hard to do it there with the buffett and all. I did do 30 minutes on the bike yesterday. I tried this morning but my butt hurts from yesterday. I may try again later. I am getting together with my friends this evening and doing Yoga Booty Ballet. WE'll see how that goes considering I'm so uncoordinated it isn't funny. I will try my best though.

New Look

Starting Weight: 261 Today's Weight: 232 Total Loss: 29 pounds

I get my haircut and colored today. I'm looking forward to getting rid of my mop. Yesterday was a good day. I got a good portion of the house clean. I got most of the laundry done. I did take an hour walk yesterday but am disappointed in myself because I called my husband to come and get me because I overdid myself. I am going to not repeat that. I heard on a show last night that you can burn 600 calories by riding a bike for an hour. I can't ride that long yet but I am going to work myself up to that. It would be great to burn that many calories with exercise. Today is going to be another good day. IT's going to be a great week.

Hectic

Starting Weight: 261 Today's Weight: 232 Total Lost: 29 pounds

IT's been a hectic weekend and is going to be a hectic week. I ate out almost every single day last week. I refuse to eat out this week unless we go somewhere on Wednesday and that will be it. I'm eating light today and cleaning house for Jakob's party this weekend. All should go well. I went grocery shopping today and got the ice cream on sale so you can't get much better than that. There will be a lot of snacks for the sleepover but it's for the boys NOT ME!!!! I'm going to really concentrate on exercise this week as well. I will walk in the evenings for the three days that I'm off. IT got awfully warm here. I will go to the Y on the off days because of the heat. I am going to lose the weight. I would like to see 220 by vacation. I think I can do it if I apply myself. Three weeks to lose 12 pounds. Yeah!
Well, I'm off to a good day.

Proud Mama

Yesterday wasn't to bad. I didn't eat much really. I still feel gassy so the scales were up today. I don't know what the deal is. I did wake up famished this morning but full of energy. I took Jakob out to breakfast. It's his last day of school. He got honor roll all year long. He got an award for academical excellence that was signed by the president. He also got a couple of art awards. I'm so proud of him. He is a great kid. It's his last day at the current school. Next year he goes to a different school. It'll be a whole new journey for him and for me. I think being a mom is the most rewarding thing. Children show you unconditional love. They love you no matter what.

New Outlook

I'm going to do good today. I'm not going to eat unless I'm hungry and then I'm going to watch what I eat. I'm going to walk to my son's school for his awards program. I feel great that he asked me to come. It really shocked me. He's been the embarrassed little boy for the last couple of years and didn't want mommy around. He's now asking me to plus not afraid to give me hugs and kisses and tell me he loves me with his friends around.
I turned in my three weeks notice to work yesterday. I then turned around and found out that they scheduled me for a day that THEY approved for me to have off. It's the day of my son's birthday party. I've got news for them. I will not work. My son is more important to me than a job that i'm quitting anyway. I want to leave on good standing but will sacrifice it for my child. I am peaved about it. Jason says that if I don't get it off with them giving it to me that I will just up and quit on the 2nd. I won't do that but I will call of Saturday morning.
I'm actually looking forward to taking care of my grandma. I'm looking forward to having the time for my son. I'm looking forward to being there for my family. I won't have to have a strict dress code or watch every p and q. It'll be so much easier going to work then it is now. Plus I'll know in the long run that I did the right thing.

Darn It

OKay, I'm getting sick and tired of myself. I do real good most of the day but screw up at some point. I'm not only hurting myself. I'm hurting my family and letting my friends down. I gave myself excuses for not doing the exercise. I have to quit that as well. No excuses. THey suck. No eating out for the next week. I need to eat at home and I need to get this right. I am not going to lose at the rate I'm going.

Short Entry

I didn't do to bad yesterday but the scales were up this morning. I'm not totally understanding the shifts in weight. I also can't understand why the scales won't drop below 230. IT really sucks! I will lose the weight though. I'm not giving up. I'm pushing forward.

Sunday Entry

Starting Weight: 261 Today's Weight: 233 Total Loss: 28

Okay, the scales aren't budging. I'm exercising and eating better. Okay, my food choices aren't the best. I have to watch it more. I'm really going to work hard the next few days and bust out of this rut. 225 is my vacation number now. I'm going to work on hitting it. I can lose 8 pounds in four weeks. Two pounds a weeks isn't much to ask.
Leaving work is going to be harder than I thought. I am really going to miss the people I work with. I will see my team weekly and talk to them daily but it's not going to be the same. I'm going to be left to my own alot more. I will have my family backing me. I just have to remember that the computer is NOT my friend. I can't plop down on my behind and expect the weight to fall off magically. I have to try harder. I will try really hard this week to make a few necessary changes.

Choices

S.W: 261 T.W.: 233 T. L.: 28

I lost the three pounds I gained. I don't know where they came from but they are gone. It looks like I'm stuck in the 230's. I want out. I know it's all about the choices I make. I make the choice of what goes in my mouth. I make the choice of if I exercise or not. I have to make the right choices.
I've decided that after almost 5 years at Wal-mart to quit. I am going to take care of my grandmother and I can't take the personal leave I wanted because you can' t use it for grandparents. It really sucks but I have to follow my heart. My heart says taking care of grandma is th right thing. I know it'll be difficult but in the long run actually best for my family. I'll get to be at home during the day and I can take my son with me to grandma's at night.
I know it's important to be there for family. I screwed up with my mom. I think she probably understood but it's not the point. I should have been there. My husband is allowing me to be there for my grandmother. Of course, he's said that he doesn't really have a choice. IT's okay though. I love him dearly. He is half of my heart. I love him to death.

A Jump

Starting Weight: 261 Today's Weight: 236 Total Loss: 25

I have no idea why my weight jumped 3 pounds and why it is so high. It really sucks. I'm going to go super light today and work out super hard. I hope that will make a huge difference. We'll see. I figure some of it is bloat. I'm counting down the days until the 13th of June. IT'll be my last day at work for a while. I'm going to take care of my grandmother starting the 26th of June. I'm actually looking forward to it. My grandma means the world to me. SHe took care of our family as much as she could. I know she sacrificed a lot. It's our turn to take care of her and I'm going to make sure she gets the best possible care.

Attitude

S. W. : 261 Today's Weight: 233 Total Loss: 28

It's a lot more about attitude than people think. YOu have to think positive and act positive to see positive results especially for longevity. I woke up this morning with a great attitude. I got up and went for a walk. I intended on walking for an hour. Well, luckily my foot hurt and made me turn back. I no sooner got in my front door and it started storming. IT was real close. I ended up with a 30 minute walk instead. I will get on the elliptical and try to do it for 30 minutes even if I have to split it up in intervals. Our trainer said intervals work really well. I'm so happy to be doing this. I have made a decision no more pasta until after vacation. I can't control myself. I proved that last night. I am going to work extra hard the next few months and lose this weight. I would love to be at goal by June 1st next year. I can lose 100 pounds in a year. I can do this. I am going to show everyone that it is doable.

Easier

OKay the trainer last night was a little easier than I expected. I know he went easy on us for two reasons: one we were late and two it was our first time. It's going to get harder. I thought it was great because I was woke up by my friend who called to ask to go for a walk and then we had a light lunch. This is why I formed the group. THis is what I wanted from my friends. This is the whole reason for doing this. IT's easy because the friends I have now are life long friends. We started our journey to lose weight but the friendship is a lot stronger. We are helping each other and supporting each other through what is one of the hardest trials of our lives. I love my friends.

Change is Coming

Beg. Weight: 261 Today's Weight: 230 Total Lost: 31

The meeting with the trainer last night was awesome. We have an actual training session tonite. I'm so looking forward to it. He warned us that he's going to work us hard and that is fine. The thing we all found so funny was the other teams didn't even look enthused at all. We are all ready to go. Some other major changes are going to happen as well. One is that I'm going to take a personal leave from work to take care of my grandmother. IT may end up being a one year leave but I'll feel better taking care of her myself. I didn't take care of my mom at the end like I should. WHere it is not like my grandmother is dying she does need someone to care for her 24 hours a day? My aunt is going to pay me instead of the caregiver less actually so it helps us all out. Everything will work out in the end. I'm actually looking forward to it. It'll be easier in some aspects and harder in others. It's going to tear at my heart at times but I know grandma will feel better. I'll also know that she is getting great care because I'll be providing it. No one can take care of her like family.
As for my friends from work, I'll be in contact with them DAILY!!!! I will see them weekly. I will still pop into work. I'm not deserting anyone. I just hope they know that. I want this more than anything to lose the weight. I want to work hard. I want to lose the weight. I want to be there for my family. HEck,, I want it all!!!!!

Rainy Day!!!

Beg. Weight: 261 Today's Weight: 232 Pounds lost: 29

I hate rain! It won't quit. It's depressing and not motivating at all. UGh!
WE get our personal trainer today!!! We are very excited about it. We know he'll kick our butts which is good. We want to win this competition and the only way we will is if our butts are pushed to the limit. We all can get pretty complacent on our exercising. He won't allow us to. I am determined to have a great day today. I have three days off and I know that I can make some progress in these three days.

Happy Mother's Day!!!

Okay, this morning was a little shaky. I woke up depressed and crying over stupid crap. It's not my TOM so I don't know what the whole problem was. I am okay now though. I got a really sweet card from Jakob and Jason. I also got some Pepsi One's from Jakob. They are great because they only have 1 calorie and no sugar. I am going to limit myself to one per day to make them last and because they have caffeine but it's going to be great to be able to have pop and not feel guilty. I'm doing very well today diet wise. I didn't have much for lunch. I did treat myself to a pop but I think calorie wise it won't make much of a difference.
I will exercise my butt off tomorrow and the next three days. I'm going to lose this weight and keep it off.

Bad Day

Okay, today diet wise sucked. It was just a bad day though not a bad weekend and not the start of a bad week. I'm going to map out a plan for this week.

1. Exercise every day. We meet with our personal trainer on Monday.
2. Back to Water. I've been slacking. THis has to stop.
3. Stick to my calories. Up my fruit and veggies, lower the bad stuff.

I'm going to shoot for a four pound loss this week. I know I can do it.

On My Way

Starting Weight: 261 Today's Weight: 233 Total Loss: 28 pounds Yesterday's Cals: 1723


Well, the scales at the Y read 3 pounds less for me. My team had a total loss of 7 pounds which equals to .6%. We are doing it. We worked out for an hour and boy, do I feel it. I'm going to work harder on my exercise and eating right. I'm doing better but not good enough. We get the trainer starting Monday and he's going to kick our butt. We have to push ourselves in order to lose. We have to work hard and do what it takes. It's going to take sacrifice and patience. I have to sacrifice what I want to eat and what I want to do in order to lose the weight. June is going to be a busy month. I would like to weigh in at 3 more pounds gone again next week. We can do this. I know we can. It is doable. It is workable .

Better Day

Beginning Weight: 261
Yesterday's Weight: 236
Today's Weight: 234
Loss as of Today: 27 pounds
YEsterday's Calories:1628

I had lunch with Rebel today. It's always nice visiting with her. I need to get my butt in gear again with exercise and water. I do good with water on days I work but awful on days that I'm home. I need to get my act together or I'll never lose the weight for this competition. I am going to work harder.

Down Day

Starting Weight: 261
Yesterday's Weight: 232
Today's Weight: 236
Total Loss As of Today: 25 pounds
Yesterday's Calories: 1450

I am up today in weight but I think it's because of nature. I know it'll be down by tomorrow. I promise. I'm going to work hard and even harder. I went 0n a walk first thing today. I plan on walking again today if it doesn't rain. IT is a little depressing to work hard and see the scales move up. They'll be back down tomorrow. I'm going to work hard to not let my team down. I have to.

I Feel Pretty

Today"s Weight: 233
Yesterday's Calories: 1710

Okay, I left my yahoo group this morning. SOmeone else decided to take over so that is great.
I feel really pretty this morning. I'm wearing a blue jean skort and a white tank top. It's been ten years since I've worn anything like a skirt. I feel thinner as well. The scales didn't budge this week and that is very good considering the weekend that I had. I feel like I let my team down this weekend. It was my monthly week so that didn't help. I'm going to work harder on getting myself thinner. I hated to let the yahoo group go but it wasn't what I was looking for and I really need to move on. One of the other members took over and I know she'll do a great job.
I'm ready to concentrate on me and get this extra weight off for good and work hard. My monthly is over and no more excuses. None!!! I'm going to make my group proud.

Cravings and Boredom

Today's Weight: 232
Yesterday's Calories:1152

Okay, I'm bored. I'm craving everything in sight. It really sucks. LOL!!!!! I am on a countdown to vacation and have a lot going on the next couple of months. I'm excited for it all. I'm actually really anxious. I'm like a child when it comes to doing fun things. I want them now not 44 days from now. LOL!!!! Yes, I have 44 days until King's Island. We are doing things before then. ONe being-Indiana Beach, shopping, and a birthday party. I know my son is excited. The weight of course isn't coming off fast enough. I want to lose 15 pounds before we go. I hope I can do it. I'm working hard.

It's Beginning!!!!

Today's Weight: 232
Yesterday's Calories:1356

Today is the start of our Biggest Loser CHallenge. I'm so excited. I think this may be the push that we need. I know I've made a lot of changes since starting the group. How can I be a leader if I don't lead by example? HOw can I expect anyone to take me seriously if I don't try my hardest? Plus vacation is less than 7 weeks away now. I want to enjoy myself and know that I did my best. I want to make goals by June 1st of next year. I want to be at my final goal then. I will as well. I am not going to try I'm going to do. LOL!!!! I'm going to push myself hard and keep myself motivated and work hard.

A New Month

Okay, it's a new month. WE're beginning our challenge this week so I'm excited about it. I'm only 7 weeks away from vacation so I'm excited about it. THe only thing is that I need to get a lot more of this weight off before I go. I'm not sure I can get all 33 pounds off but I can sure try to get as much off as possible. I"m going to try for 20 pounds at least. I think I can do that. Either way I know I won't have problems this year riding rides. I'm really going to push myself this month. I stopped taking the slim quicks because my husband is dead against them and he is right. I'm not sure if they were helping or not. I've got some major goals this month. They are:

1. Exercise for at least 30 minutes daily. I'm going to shoot for 60.
2. Strenght train at the Y at least 2 times per week.
3. Drink 150 oz water a day
4. Eat between 1100-1400 calories per day
5. No pop at all at anytime.

I'm going to really work hard and beat the weight. I'm going to work hard and lose this weight. IT's been a hard journey and it's not going to get any easier. I want to win the battle for myself and my family.