Scared

I can't believe that I' m past my plateau. I'm finding myself scared to get on the scales in the morning. I have consistently stayed at 236 the last two days. I wake up every morning feeling for sure that I gained the three pounds back from the day before even though I haven't ate enough to gain the three pounds. I lost three pounds while on my monthly. Is that possible? When my monthly is over will the scales be even lower? The questions can drive me mad. LOL!!!! I am happy the scales are finally going in the right direction but it's scary to think I could go back. Monday is going to be a real challenge. I'm taking my son to Indianapolis Children's Museum and promised to take him to IHOP for breakfast and Old Country Buffett for supper. I will do my best to make some good choices and I'm going to go real light for the weekend to prepare for it but I'm still scared. Will it put me back to where I was? The museum will mean a whole day of walking but is it enough? UGh.....I'm going to go crazy. I just have to do my best and hope for the best.

IMPRESSED

Well, I'm impressed. I weighed in on Wednesday morning and still weighed 237 even though I started my monthly. I'm finally seeing some progress. I want to lose this weight and I'm finally doing it. My home group has taken off and even if it stays small it's cool. The group is pulling together and really supporting each other. I love my groups. I don't think I would have gotten past my plateau if I hadn't had them. I guess the good part of the plateau is that maybe it'll teach me that when I get to goal that I can maintain it and that if I do screw up that it's not the end of the world. I'm consciencely eating and doing my best to make the right decisions. IT's all about the right decisions. I'm going to start thinking about every bite I put in my mouth. If it's not going to help, it's not going in unless it's a special occasion.

Scales went down

WEll, the scales were down to 237 this morning. YEah!!!!!! It's not as low as yesterdays but I feel like i'm going to start my monthly so I'm sure that has something to do with it. It is down two pounds from Saturday so maybe just maybe I'm past the stupid 239 plateau. I'm going to push for 234 by Saturday. IT would make this week a five pound loss and hopefully help me in the challenges that I'm starting. I better post my goals here so that I don't forget the goals by next Saturday.

1. No Fast Food
2. No sweet tea
3. Watch my carbs
4. Lose 20 pounds ( an average of a little more than 3 pounds per week)

I can do this. I know I can.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

Well, today is my birthday. YEah. I'm 32 now. IT's been a great day. I took a 30 minute walk which is only a third of my walk from yesterday. I weighed in great this morning but I'm not going to record it so I don't jinx it. My weight loss group meets today for the first time. I've never done anything like this. My friends and I are excited to be doing this. I know great things are going to come from it. I feel so motivated and gung ho right now. I was close to wanting to give up because the scale wasn't budging. It's hard and I get upset sometimes because things don't go how I want or as fast as I want. I'm doing it though and I'm not quitting. I started implementing some big changes and it is helping so far. I can keep up this momemtum.

I'm going to do it

My group is doing a challenge. My support group at home is growing in numbers already and is getting ready to take off. I couldn't be happier. I'm going to succeed at this. HEck, with all this support how can you fail? I'm ready to kick butt and lose this weight for good. I know the weekend is going to be great but starting Tuesday after my birthday I'm going to start setting up daily menus and keeping to an exercise routine. It's why I went to evenings. I have to quit making excuses. NO going back to bed. I need to lose four pounds a week to get to my goal by vacation. I'm going to get as close as I can. The scales will start moving again.
Excuses do nothing but hinder you. They don't help. I have to remember why I'm doing this. I've got the reservations made for King's Island so it is a done deal. Jakob is looking so forward to it and i would love to have a nice outfit to wear along the way. I'm going to do this.

Staying Strong

Well, I'm staying strong. I'm really watching it and doing my exercise. I feel like I'm going to accomplish something. THe problem is that I'm due to start my monthly. Yuck!!! It's always hard when I know my monthly is coming. THe scale won't budge from it alone. THe thing I'm working on is to make the scale move drastically when it's over. I've got to stay strong and not give in to the cravings that always come with my monthly. It's not good to give in to them. I have to keep plugging away. The weather is not bad so I'm getting my walks in which I prefer over everything. I like swimming but sometimes it's just to much work to go do it. YOu have to drive to the Y, put the suit on, shower, and then you're ready to swim. WHen I walk, it's all I do is walk. I don't go to any trails because they get boring. I can vary my walk around here and not do the same route twice. I walked thirty minutes today already and may take another one before the night is over. It was refreshing. I should have done more but I didn't. My little boy wants me to walk 80 minutes straight. I want to make his goal for me happen. I'm thinking maybe after he gets his homework done then we can do something about that. HE's a great kid and wants mommy to succeed. I want to be to goal by no later than June 2008. I'm sure i'll hit it before then but that is my ultimate deadline. WE are going to Florida then and I want to look awesome before we go.

Doing it

Other than the chinese that I ate today, I"m not doing to bad. I didnt' exercise today due to work. I'm really excited about my weight loss support group that some friends and I are starting. It's going to be great knowing that I have the same support outside of the computer and outside of family. It'll be great seeing everyone slim down and shape up.

Renewed Vigor

Okay, as I'm posting this today I have a renewed vigor and strength to lose this weight. I went to the truck stop with a friend last night who wanted advice on weight loss. We came up with some cool ideas to keep us motivated and a plan of attack. We are going to lose the weight once and for all. We are also talking about putting together our own support group. Weight watchers and TOPS are both proven weight loss meetings. They are expensive though. If we do one of our own, it'll be doable. I'm hoping our other friend will go along with it and we can start adding members. I'm usually not such a go getter but we need to lose and the more support you have and the more accountability you have the better it is. We can have fun to and great friendships can be made. I'm so looking forward. Right now it's just us two. We are going to get together once a week and read over each others journals. I'm going to track everything I do and all that I eat. We'll then critique it and help each other with a better eating plan. I know it'll work. I gained two pounds this week and that is just unaccepatable. I'm going to fight this fight til the end. I'm going to be a loser.

OKay Day

WEll, I got to take the day off of work today. I wasn't feeling good this morning at all so they let me cut my hours. Thank Heavens for small favors. I am feeling better now though. I think my problem was that I ran hard the last two days doing thing that I haven't had much of a chance to rest. I'm doing good diet wise though. I'm going to try to take a walk. I started a yahoo weight loss group and am thankful for it. IT's really taken off in the last few days. The support that I get there is awesome. I'm also able to give it as well. I think the support you get can be the difference between losing and failing. I am going to accomplish my goals and move on with my life a healthier me. I am happy now so it won't necessarily be a happier me.
If anyone reading my blog is trying to lose weight and wants to join my group there is a link on my blog page for it. I or my moderator will check it often and will make you a member.

Updating

WEll, it's been a long weekend. I haven't done the best and don't expect another loss next weekend. I've gotten a cold and am not feeling to well. Exercise other than walking around the malls have been non existant. I haven't done anything around the house. I'm feeling pretty low right now. I've had fun shopping but feel like a diet failure. I know I'm not and I know i'm going to succeed. I just have to get back on track and I'm doing that now. I'm not waiting for tomorrow. Today food wise has been good. I'm not going to exercise because I'm tired. I"m going to relax.

Working Hard

Well, yesterday wasn't to bad. I didn't eat to much. Heck, I barely ate anything at all. I'm off today so the exercise will definetely happen. The scales showed 236 this morning but that is still less than what it has been reading lately so maybe I broke through the stupid plateau. I know they are going to happen but they are so darn frustrating. I have to keep reminding myself why I'm doing this. Jakob is looking forward to going to King's Island and I don't want to be 235 pounds when I go. I would like to be less then 200. The day that I say goodbye to the 200's I'll cry. I know I can do this and am going to continue working hard. Today is going to be an exercise day. I'm going to walk and swim. I'm going to accomplish my goals.

Times are Good

Well, the scales were good to me today. I weighed in at 234. I was so thrilled. My sister in law has invited me to help scrape wallpaper and I think I'll take her up on it. I'll have to get a hold of her. I know I lost weight while working on my house. I get to repaint a bedroom this summer.
I'm not doing very well on the exercise but really good on the food. I"m excited to see the scale actually move.

An overlook and March goals

Okay, it's a new month and I need some new goals. I want to attain these. I need to attain these goals. Exercise slumped for me in Jan/Feb. Food got better in February but I still plateaued throughout the month. It's time to get past that and move on. The weather will start warming up a bit in March with the arrival of spring so I'll have more choices available to me. My goals are:

1. Keep an exercise log and exercise for 1000 minutes this month.
2. Eat right and drink my water.
3. Hope to be at 225 at least by the end of the month.

I can reach my goals and more. THis is doable. I think just by upping my exercise I'll be able to reach my goals and see the weight fall off. It's time to get moving.

Scales are GOod

Okay, the scales read 235 this morning. Does this mean I'm past my plateau and they'll start moving consistently again? I sure hope so. I'm hoping the weather warms up a little more and I'll get on my bike and maybe go for a small ride. I like the idea of having a bike so that I can ride bikes with my son and it's another option for exercise so I don't get bored. I don't like doing the same thing over and over again. We live in town but close enough on the edge that I can ride into the country if I want to. We can definetely ride to the video store and to the gas station easily enough. I'm motivated today even though I don't feel good. My throat is so sore in the morning and evening but doesn't feel to bad during the afternoon. I'm going to lose this weight. If I can lose another couple of pounds before Saturday then I'll have at least a five pound loss for this week. Yeah. I'm going to really push for it. I can do this. I know I can.