The Curse

I know I haven't been updating nearly as much as I should. I am doing pretty good the last couple of days. I didn't exercise again today but I cleaned and have been pretty active . I'm going to try to take a walk after supper because it's pretty nice out and I need to get my butt moving. I'm on my monthly and I always get sluggish with it. I think it robs you of energy. I know why they used to call it the curse. LOL!!!!! I think it's a punishment. No wonder we get moody.

Feeling Motivated

I lost one pound this week even though I started my monthly today. I think I probably had a bigger loss but since I started it didn't show. I'm okay with that. IT's better than a gain. I'm feeling really motivated and jazzed about that. I am going to do this. I've got to make better food choices and exercise more. Those are my two weaknesses. I want the scales to be at 220 by April 1st. I want to say goodbye to the 230's. I think I'm going to have to change my vacation goal because I don't see myself losing 65 pounds in three months at this rate. I was hoping not to plateau but I did. I'm going to shoot for 200 pounds by June 18th. If I surpass it great, if not well I'll live with it.

Doing Better

I'm doing much better today. I have already been to the Y and may go back tonite but if I don't it's okay because I've already been there. I pushed myself even though I didn't want to. I started a Yahoo group as well. You can never have to much support. I have to put both feet in and push myself harder than I ever have. I'm worth it and my family is worth it. I'm going to accomplish my goals and make myself into the hot skinny mama I know I can be....lol!!!!

Lack of......

Okay, lately there has been a lack of motivation and a lack of exercise. I need to quit making excuses and do this. WHy am I doing this? Let's remind myself of ten good reasons why.....
1. Health
2. Look
3. Trip to King's Island
4. Jason
5. Jakob
6. Me
7. Energy
8. Happiness
9. Inspire others
10. To feel better about myself

I can do this. I had a plan for exercise and went five days without it. This is not acceptable. I have to try harder. I have to work hard at this and do what is necessary.

Don't Understand

Okay, the scales this morning read 241 which is up 5 pounds from last weekend. Why? I know exercise hasn't been good but the eating has been pretty good. I did my measurements and stayed the same so I can't say that I gained muscle. Here's the weird thing. I got into my 20's. What's up with that? I've been constipated a lot lately. I don't know if that has anything to do with it or not. I'm going to really watch everything this week. I need to get out of the 30's into the 20's soon or I'm going to really lose hope. It frustrating not to see the scales go down. I know I could have done better in certain areas this week by I have done far worse and not gained a pound. I know I've hit one of those inevitable plateaus but how do I get past it. I'm at a loss of what to do. I'm going to try to up my exercise next week and stick to it. I't hard though with the schedules that I've been having. I'm going to make it a point to exercise everyday for at least 15 minutes even if it means jumping on my elliptical before work. I can carve 15 minutes out of each day. I'll make a schedule I'll stick to.This is my schedule.

Saturday-swimming at the Y; I'll shoot for 60 minutes
Sunday-15 minutes on the elliptical
Monday-treadmill at the Y-20 minutes; other machines 10 minutes
Tuesday- treadmill at the Y-20 minutes; other machines 10 minutes
Wednesday-swim at the Y-60 minutes
Thursday-treadmill at the Y-20 minutes; other machines 10 minutes
Friday-treadmill at the Y-20 minutes; other machines 10 minutes
Saturday-off
Sunday-elliptical at home 15 minutes
Monday-swim at Y 60 minutes
Tuesday-swim at Y 60 minutes
Wednesday-swim at Y 60 minutes
Thursday-swim at Y 60 minutes
Friday-swim at Y 60 minutes

Okay, that's my schedule for the next two weeks. I'm going to really push myself and see what happens. ONly good can come from it right. I'm not taking any measurements until after the two weeks are up. I have to do this. I knew it wasn't going to be easy. I'm getting lazy and that is why I'm at a standstill.

Awesome Day

Well, today at work wasn't so awesome. I worked the snack bar most of the day. It doesn't hurt my diet because they don't have anything worth eating. I didn't exercise either again today. It's hard to do with the shift that I worked and then it was storming when I got home. I went out to eat with a friend but didn't overdo it so I don't feel to bad. The scales still aren't moving but I'm not going to fret over it either. Okay, so what is so awesome. Well, we got both our tax checks this week. I paid all my bills up to date. Paid off my medical bill so it's like we are at a clean slate. Things are going to be good. I'm so happy. I know the scales will move. I think I've hit a plateau and am having a hard time getting through. I did this with the 250's as well. I breezed through the 40's so hopefully I will the 20's as well. I'm going to lose the weight. I'm not about to give it up.

Blah

Today is a pretty blah day. I'm not feeling to well and exercise doesn't sound good neither does food which is good. I don't want to eat that much and wont' so maybe it'll even itself out. I'm not doing bad this week but the scales are still not loving me. LOL!! I guess they didn't know it was Valentines' Day yesterday. LOL!!!!!! They will move whether they like it or not. I will make them.

A New Suit and Attitude

It's amazing what a new swimsuit will do for you. I swam without the aid of a noodle because I didn't have to worry about the suit falling off of my shoulders. I felt more confident. I swam for an hour tonite. I'm so happy. I want to exercise for a total of 200 minutes this week. I swam for 60 minutes tonite so I've got 140 minutes left for the week. I hope to accomplish it. It's hard to do when you have to work odd hours. I can't wait until April 1st.

Ho Hum

It's a ho hum day. LOL!!!! I'm going to exercise this afternoon. I didn't yesterday due to work. I changed my availability starting April 1st to evenings only so I can get my exercise in the morning before my ankle is hurting. Hopefully this will give me a leg up. I'm eating light today due to going to Indy tomorrow. I don't know what it'll hold in store for me food wise. We still haven't got our tax check but it'll hopefully come today. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. We are going regardless but I'm a little uneasy about going with bill money. I know it'll work out. I'm hoping for a three pound loss this week. I can do it.

Great Day

WEll, today is a good day so far. The scales read up one pound to 237 but it's just a daily fluctuation and I'm cool with it. I've got until Saturday to record a weight. I'm still at a loss for the week. I started my day at the Y with 30 minutes on the treadmill. It's only the 2nd time that I've done that long. I feel so energized and ready to go. I am doing good this week with not going back to bed after my son goes to school. Hubby is going to be really proud of me. I've not had this good of a week for a long time. It's amazing what you can do if you set your mind to it. I'm so motivated right now.

I'M DOING IT

I'm doing it. The scales read 236 this morning which is down 2 pounds. It felt so good to see those numbers. I"m back to where I was at in the beginning of January. My lowest has been 234. I've lost three pounds since Saturday. I'm on top of the world. It's amazing how good it feels when the scales read lower. I'm so motivated right now. I know I'm going to do this and accomplish all my goals. Jason, Jakob, and I are going to Indy this weekend if we get our tax checks. I'm so excited. It'll feel good to go out. Jason is even looking forward to it. IT's unusual for him to get excited and look forward to going out. IT's going to be a great week. I'm hoping for two more pounds gone by Saturday. I hope!!!!

I'M BACK AT IT

Well, I'm doing very well today. I have made some major decisions for some major changes. I figured up a menu and will stick to it the best I can. I will not make as much food as I was. If the food isn't made, then I can't eat it. I bought some fruits and veggies. They are canned but I can't afford fresh. I did buy the light fruit juice instead of in heavy sryup. I am going to try to exercise four hours this week. I'll up it next week. The scales were back down to 238 this morning. I would love to lose 5 pounds this week. We'll see what happens. I'm bound and determined to lose the weight and I will. I have to stay positive.

A Boring Day

Not to much happened today. I am going to really watch my food this week. I think I'm doing okay exercise wise but the food is a whole other matter. I'm not eating enough of the right things. This week I'm going to wing it but next week when i go grocery shopping, I'm going to make a menu and stick to it. I'll watch calories and all that. Having a plan doesn't hurt.

Frustrated

I am so frustrated. The scales are not budging. I took my measurements and my waist is up 1.5 inches. I feel bloated which is probably the problem. The thing is I don't know what to do about it. I am drinking water. I'm going to take a day off of exercise today. Maybe my muscles are combatting it since I'm doing so much. I even have been doing well on food. I don't know what the deal is. I ate all three meals yesterday. I had oatmeal for breakfast, large salad for lunch, and 1 cheeseburger with veggies on it with baked fries for supper. I had one small snack bag of corn nuts for a snack. I drank 80 oz of water and one glass of chocolate milk. Today I work a midshift so I have to figure out how to get my meals in. I won't get home until 7. My lunch won't be until 1:30. I'm going to try to eat something small on my breaks. It will be small. I am not giving up even though it's exactly what I feel like doing. I'm working hard with no results. It's very frustrating. I know I can do this. Today there will be no chocolate milk today and no exercise. I'm going to take it easy.

Determined

I had to really push my ankle today. It hurt but I still did 20 minutes on the treadmill and did 10 minutes on the various machines in the gym. I'm determined. It's the only thing keeping me going right now. I'm not doing very well as far as getting the pounds off. I swear my scales are stuck. It's very frustrating. I don't feel like I'm doing bad and I exercise everyday then why are the scales not moving? Ugh!!!! I need to just work hard and start making some changes. I would love to at least be 225 by Mar 1 but less than that would be awesome. Hard work will pay off. I'm determined. YOu can't stop a determined woman. LOL!!!!!

Another Day

It's just another day. It's boring and nothing special. I haven't exercised yet but actually am anxious to do so. I'm debating about going twice. I want to really go swimming and beat yesterdays record. What I would like to do is swim 22 laps and water walk another 11. If I go twice, then I can get double the benefits. Or would I do more damage by exercising twice. I want the weight gone yesterday. I know that it isn't the way to go but it is getting monotonous. Dieting is not fun and not easy. Watch what you eat, deny yourself what you want, and exercise like there is no tomorrow. Miss one of those ingredients and you can doom yourself. UGh!!!!!! I wish there was a magic pill to make it go away. I don't believe in taking pills for weight loss because it doesn't teach you the right way to live. I don't want to be on pills the rest of my life. Don't believe in the surgery either so that only leaves one option. Work my butt off and exercise like crazy and watch what I eat. WEll, I'm off to the grind.