Day one Best life diet

Well, today was absolutely awesome. I can't believe how well it went. I met some new friends at school and they even treated me to lunch. I was just thrilled to be invited to have lunch with someone. They were a real nice couple. They are in my essay group in English class so it was nice to get to know someone.
Day one for the new diet has gone well. I have yet to get my exercise in but I will. I've got to change into my sweats and then I'll get on the elliptical. I would rather walk but it's way to cold. OTher than forgetting my vitamin which is a requirement I did well. I did weigh in this morning at 258.2. I weigh in again on Feb. 15th. I'm used to weighing in at the least every couple of days so this will be a new thing for me. I feel real hopeful about this for a change.
I think things are finally turning for the good. I do have to learn how to handle stress better and to stay away from fast food. I can do it though. Life will be so much better if I'm thinner. I'm going to succeed. I'm making a promise to myself. I promise to lose the weight and live a healthier lifestyle. I promise to be here for my family. I promise to reach my goals.

OOPS!!!

Okay, I gained .2 pounds this week. I'm not going to freak over it with the kind of week that I had. I'm going to work hard this week to definetely get in at least a pound loss this week. My birthday is 10 weeks and 4 days away. Okay, I'm going to try to lose 20 pounds in that time. IT's safe to lose 2 pounds a week. I can do this. It's important to set some goals for myself and I realize that i need to be realistic in setting them.
I've been making better choices the last couple of weeks but I can still do better. Eating out is my biggest problem. It's to easy especially with some of my classes to just grab lunch out. SUpper isn't a problem so much because Jason has a say in it. Lunch I'm left to my own devices. I did good today. I got my sweater on and was going to go to Taco John's but decided to eat the pizza rolls I had in the freezer instead. I know pizza rolls aren't the best option but far better then what I would have gotten had I gone out to eat.
I'm going to lose this weight. I'm going to prove to myself and others that it can be done.

Wake up Call

Okay, wake up call at the doctors today. I went in thinking I had a UTI. Well, according to my test I don't but according to my symptoms I may have. He's going to send the culture to another lab to be tested more extensively. Here's the wake up call though. He took bloodwork to test my blood sugar because my urinating alot is also a sign of diabetes. Okay, he didn't go into details but I know enough that when he does say that he's testing for sugar what it could mean. I'm going to be on edge until the results come back. Diabetes is one of my strongest fears. Jason doesn't understand why I'm so on edge. It's okay. HE's probably right and I'm overreacting. I know if I do that I can control it with diet and exercise and you know that is exactly what i'm going to do. NO more stupid choices of eating out at the wrong places. NO more slacking. I am going to do this. Grandma is letting me sleep at night again so I'm going to have time during the day to exercise. No excuse for me not to eat right. If I have to eat out, then Subway it shall be whether I like it or not. Dieting constitutes sacrifices and I will make them. I am going to change my outlook and my way of thinking. No more excuses and no more wasted days.