Yoo Hoo!!!!

Okay, I got on the scales again today and guess what? Two more pounds gone for a total of three pounds this week so far. I guess doing things right makes a huge difference. My way of thinking this week has just turned around for the best. I laid out chicken for supper tonite and it didn't thaw in time for me to fix it. The first thing that crossed my mind was that we would have to eat out or order pizza. I then thought about the numbers on the scale and that they were finally going in the right direction and the fact that my communications teacher is providing pizza for us on Thursday and we are having pizza on SUnday at my parents for Christmas. Hmmmm.....eating out would not be a good idea for tonite. I didn't have anything that didn't need to thaw but thought spaghetti would be a better decision because I can defrost the hamburger in the microwave. I'm going to do that. It's hard to keep to this but I'm seeing results. Hubby will be happy that I did not put sweats on today. LOL!!!! He says they are fat people clothes. He's right but they are comfy...lol!!!!

Screwed up a little

Okay, yesterday I screwed up a little. JUst a little. We ate out for supper at Taco John's. Bad bad me. LOL!!! It will be the only time this week. I'm on track today to do good so I'm really happy about that. The pool is closed for three days which sucks because that is what I want to go do. It's easier for me to exercise in the water and more fun. The elliptical is boring but I'm going to have to force my behind to get on it. It looked like it was going to rain or I would have gotten out and walked. I've done good today on my food choices as well. I keep telling myself when I have those unnerving cravings that they aren't worth it. What do I want more: my health or the fatty snack? IS there really a choice? NO!!!! I've got to keep myself focused. I did get on the scales this afternoon after I got up and the scales read 254 which is down one pound. I know it's only one pound but it's moving in the right direction. I just hope it stays that way. I know it will. It has to. I'm doing it right this time.

WIth It

Okay, yesterday was as close to perfect as I've gotten in a long time. I'm so proud of myself. I ate right, exercised, and didn't eat anything I wasn't supposed to. I proved to myself that I can reach my goals and do what it takes. I'm working on day two today. I have to remember what it is that I'm doing this for. THere are many reasons:

1. My health
2. My family
3. More energy
4. Look better
5. Reach a goal

There are plenty more reasons but those are the main ones. I want to be skinny at my graduation. I don't want to be the fat girl walking across the stage. I also don't want to let me or my family down. They depend on me being here and I won't be if I stay where I am today. I can do this.

BREAKDOWN

Well, today was not good. I have to get my behind in gear. I am getting frustrated at a lot of stuff. Some of it I can control and some I can't. I'm going to do my best and lose the weight though. I can control the amount of exercise I do and I can control what goes in my mouth. To be honest, I am getting frustrated at certain things that I can't control. I am feeling really alone lately. I know I'm not but I feel like it. I hate the feeling. It feels like sometimes no one has time for me. I know it's my self esteem issue and I can't expect people to drop what they are doing to accomodate me. I'm going to change some of my actions though so I don't feel like I'm so dependant on other people. I'm going to lose this weight. I would like to be 225 by my birthday in March which is a loss of 30 pounds. I can do it. I have four months to lose the 30 so Here I go. Tomorrow will be day one. I'm going to treat everything like it's a fresh start. My goals for tomorrow are:

1. 80 oz water
2. 60 min swimming
3. Eat breakfast
4. Eat 2 fruits and 2 veggies
5. Healthy supper

I am going to accomplish my goals.

Been a While

Okay, it's been a while since I posted. How have I been doing? Awful! The weight is stalled and I can't seem to get anywhere with it. Why? Don't know. I think it's a multitude of things. School, work, little sleep, not caring, and not doing things right. It seems that I can either exercise right or eat right but not both. I get down a lot because I feel like I'm doing this alone sometimes. I know I'm not but it sure feels that way. I just have to keep plugging away and moving on. I need to focus and quit eating out. Okay here's my goals for the next week.
1. Eat out only once
2. Eat balanced meals
3. Swim everyday
4. Get at least 5 hours of sleep

I can do this. I know I can. I have to have faith.